A mother and child say goodbye as one is shipped off to make veal.
“Did you know my mother? I’m told her name was Belle.
I don’t know what she looked like, but have memories of her smell.
Did you ever hear my mother?…Did her cries pull at your heart?
I remember them quite clearly, when the men pulled us apart.
Did you drink from my mother? Did you ever taste her milk?
Did you feel her face against yours? Was her skin as soft as silk?
I’ve been told I had two brothers, and my sisters numbered four,
Then my mother went to slaughter, of no value anymore.
Were you there with my mother? Did you look into her eyes?
Did you see the fear within them? Did you listen to her cries?
And now MY end is coming, I am waiting with my friends,
We are huddled close together, In this place where all life ends.
Will you be there at our slaughter? For the flesh you want to eat.
Will you ever think about us? When you buy that piece of meat.
It’s my turn now, I’m moving. I am going to my end.
I am urged with shouts and kicking, and with sticks that never bend.
I am thinking of my mother, and remembering her smell.
And I know we’ll meet in heaven, and forget this life called Hell.
I am fucking dead. :’(
I read this and I want to stop it completely. I don’t ever want to be a part of this, Ever. We can stop this,
I feel nothing or I feel too much, there is never balance.
When it comes to love, I seem to have it all wrong and not figured out. I thought that by now ,I would be surrounded by knowledge of how to achieve what everyone wants and always looks for. Love. I have tried it all, and nothing has seemed to quiet my mind that sometimes is haunted by the past or new fears. I have also attempted and failed terribly at how to be an emotionless person, or how to be able to put my feelings on hold and learning to let go. It takes time to master that and it might even take years , and once those years pass by it might be too late to be able to put those learning’s into motion. By that time I will be older, and probably with someone who has already won my heart for the right or the wrong reasons. And by this time , most people would think that I have been able to master it, I’ve been able to find someone that wants me for who I am and has decided to share his life with me. Therefore the assumptions of the world would be that I AM HAPPY. but what about all the heart breaks , sadness before all this? why didn’t I avoid that? Why didn’t I master the art of finding love in the easiest and best possible way? Inside me , where there is always light and where love is always available.
I am not perfect, nor I intend to be. Why would I want to be something that does not exist?
"Everything in my head went quiet.
All the ticks, all the constantly refreshing images just disappeared.
When you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, you don’t really get quiet moments.
Even in bed, I’m thinking:
Did I lock the doors? Yes.
Did I wash my hands? Yes.
Did I lock the doors? Yes.
Did I wash my hands? Yes.
But when I saw her, the only thing I could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips..
Or the eyelash on her cheek-
the eyelash on her cheek-
the eyelash on her cheek.
I knew I had to talk to her.
I asked her out six times in thirty seconds.
She said yes after the third one, but none of them felt right, so I had to keep going.
On our first date, I spent more time organizing my meal by color than I did eating it, or talking to her..
But she loved it.
She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times or twenty-four times at different times of the day.
She loved that it took me forever to walk home because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk.
When we moved in together, she said she felt safe, like no one would ever rob us because I definitely lock the door eighteen times.
I’d always watch her mouth when she talked-
when she talked-
when she talked-
when she talked;
when she said she loved me, her mouth would curl up at the edges.
At night, she’d lay in bed and watch me turn all the lights off.. And on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off.
She’d close her eyes and imagine that the days and nights were passing in front of her.
But then.. She said I was taking up too much of her time.
That I couldn’t kiss her goodbye so much because I was making her late for work..
When she said she loved me, her mouth was a straight line..
When I stopped in front of a crack in the sidewalk, she just kept walking..
And last week she started sleeping at her mother’s place.
She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her; that this whole thing was a mistake, but..
How can it be a mistake that I don’t have to wash my hands after I touch her?
Love is not a mistake, and it’s killing me that she can run away from this and I just can’t.
I can’t go out and find someone new because I always think of her.
Usually, when I obsess over things, I see germs sneaking into my skin.
I see myself crushed my an endless succession of cars..
And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on.
I want to wake up every morning thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel..
How she turns shower knobs like she opening a safe.
How she blows out candles-
blows out candles-
blows out candles-
blows out candles-
Now, I just think about who else is kissing her.
I can’t breathe because he only kisses her once-he doesn’t care if it’s perfect!
I want her back so bad..
I leave the door unlocked.
I leave the lights on. ”
I would do anything to help him - someway, somehow. To be who we all are meant to be. Love giving humans , with power to be whatever we choose.
FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE
Activists to Break Russian “Gay Propaganda” Law During Olympics, Send 10,000 Pro-Gay Children’s Coloring Books Featuring Gay Kiss to Russian Homes with Kids
Copies of “Misha & His Moms Go to the Olympics” to Be Mailed Directly to Homes with Children in Sochi and Moscow During Winter Games in Defiance of Anti-Gay Law
San Francisco, CA – October 30, 2013 – Shocked by the rise in Russian anti-gay violence fueled by the Olympic host nation’s anti-gay laws, LGBT equality T-shirt company FCKH8.com will directly reach Russia’s children with a pro-gay coloring book that showcases a lesbian family and gay kiss during the week of the Olympics. Activist are protesting the “gay propaganda” law that makes it a punishable crime to say anything positive about being gay when someone under 18 years old might hear, see or read it. With its “Gay OK” message, the specially-created “Misha and His Moms Go to the Olympics” will be mailed directly to homes with children in both Sochi and Moscow. Activists are taking the action of breaking the law and directly mailing the books to children to confront the anti-gay hysteria that is sweeping the country. The illegal action is also being taken to circumvent President Putin’s attempt to quash international media scrutiny during the sporting February events with his ban on human rights protests and free speech in Sochi.
“Russia has made it a crime for any pro-gay words to be spoken and that law is about to be broken.” said FCKH8.com founder, Luke Montgomery. “The message of this coloring book is to let kids in Russia know that being gay is normal. Beating and imprisoning people just for being out of the closet, or arresting them for simply saying that it’s OK if someone in their family is gay, is an attack on human rights and a trashing of the Olympic spirit. We’re going to be breaking this homophobic law and there’s nothing the government can do to stop it.”
The activist T-shirt company’s rainbow-covered coloring book, printed in the Russian language, tells the story of a Moscow boy named Misha and his two lesbian mothers going to the Olympics. It shows the boy meeting friends from around the world, one with a mother and father, and another who has two legally married dads who are shown exchanging a small kiss with the Olympic flag in the background. Other pages that children can fill in with crayons depict Russian police beating a gay couple for holding hands and a page highlighting two straight female Olympic medal winners kissing on the winner’s platform to protest the anti-gay law. Also included is a page showing a terrified Misha being taken out of his home by police as the recently proposed law to forcibly remove children from homes with gay parents would do. The book concludes on a happy note with Misha dreaming of a Russia where his family is treated equally and the boy proudly wearing a T-shirt sold on the FCKH8.com website that reads, “Some Chicks Marry Chicks. Get Over It.”
Activists are using consumer data to identify homes with children and will be mailing the coloring books in multiple styles of plain wrappers to avoid detection and seizure by authorities. Like the various methods of disguising the books for mailing, the printing location for the illegal books is being kept a close secret. FCKH8.com is working with activists inside Russia on the project and is keeping their identities secret to protect them from arrest and prosecution.
As part of the online social media campaign to share the book’s message and evade the Russian authorities efforts to stop it, the book is being offered as a free printable PDF download at FCKH8.com which allows anybody to print out their own copy. Detailed photos of the coloring book and its pages are viewable on the FCKH8.com Facebook and Tumblr pages where the group hopes to garner 100,000 Facebook “Likes” and reblogs on Tumblr to spread the word. Photos include a smiling 5 year-old boy wearing a T-shirt with Russian text that translates into “GAY OK” using crayons to fill in the drawing of two legally married gay dads kissing.
“Being lesbian and gay is normal and OK. Beating and jailing people for being out of the closet or supporting their gay family members is not OK. Talking about gay people does not make kids ‘turn’ gay anymore than talking about left-handed people makes kids left-handed.” stated Montgomery. “This is a cruel and stupid law, and we’ll break it to make its attack on basic human rights the story of the Sochi Olympics. We’re hoping thousands can join us online at FCKH8.com to speak out against this homophobic violence.” He adds, ”Every single one of our equality T-shirts we offer on our website is banned and illegal in Russia because of this law. We’re not sitting by while brave civil rights voices in Russia are brutally beaten and censored.”
The group also plans to distribute thousands of wristbands to Olympic spectators that read “GAY OK” in both Russian and English to further flout the law. Activists are upset that the International Olympic Committee has not heeded calls to move the games and will distribute the bands at Olympic events in Sochi allowing attendees from around the globe to support equality in defiance of local law. The rainbow-colored wristbands are currently being sold on the FCKH8.com website to help fund distribution during the Olympics. A line of Russian language LGBT rights tees has also been added to the site’s offering of slogan-covered T-shirts.
Book Photos: http://bit.ly/1aHBEkd
Book Photos on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/FCKH8com
Book Photos on Tumblr: http://FCKH8-tees.tumblr.com
FCKH8.com Website: http://FCKH8.com
FCKH8.com is a for-profit T-shirt company with an activist heart and a passionate social change mission: arming thousands of people with pro-LGBT equality T-shirts that act as “mini-billboards” for change. Started in 2010 with comedic viral videos that captured millions of views on YouTube, FCKH8.com has shipped over 150,000 equality tees, tanks and hoodies to supporters in over 100 countries. T-shirts emblazoned with bold messages like “Some Chicks Marry Chicks, Get Over It,” “Straight Against Hate,” and ”Legalize Love” have been publicly talked about by celebrities including Jane Lynch, Adam Lambert, Perez Hilton, and Zac Efron - who’s raved about his own “Some Dudes Marry Dudes, Get Over It” shirt in the press. With over 280,000 followers on Facebook and 40,000 on Twitter, FCKH8.com has given over $250,000 to the equality cause through directly funded projects and donations to LGBT charities.
Note: Use of the Olympic logo and mark are protected political commentary speech permitted under “fair use” laws. The coloring book is a not a product for sale.
Fresh Tofu Spring Rolls…VIDEO Recipe.
Do I HAVE to use peanut butter? Can I just NOT use it?